I assume in this life there are many categories of leaders.
Some bold, some quiet and possibly everything imaginable in between.
What I have learned is this, we all need leaders.
Although we are all on the same plane with God’s love, some are chosen and set apart to lead.
Leaders are not perfect.
Some lead with wisdom -some do not.
Some lead with integrity -some do not.
Most good leaders though, have learned through their mistakes, miscalculations, and misunderstandings.
Leaders are risk takers. It takes courage and a certain amount of confidence to lead. It takes even more courage to keep going after you’ve tripped a few times.
Most of my life I have been placed in a role of leadership.
This was nothing I determined to do, it just seemed to happen, preparation I suppose. When I entered into a Christian culture it only seemed natural to lead. Again, nothing I determined to do but I just found myself assuming a leadership role in the things we did. Life was not without challenges but God seemed to have me in the palm of His hand. I continued to push deeper into God until suddenly, everything changed. I think about the scripture, “Pride before the fall.” I can only question the cave I’ve lived in the last few years. Funny, I didn’t feel prideful, but I guess my loving Father was protecting me from myself and a puffed up ego. Looking back, lessons learned and wisdom gained in the cave are invaluable. When He says get wisdom and understanding, you have only to look in the cave. Persevering is the hard part, especially when many around you don’t fully understand. Like Job’s friends, many offer well meaning, misplaced advice. Clouded eyes make it hard to see that God might have had something to do with putting you in the cave and it’s even harder to understand why.
Trust is easy to say, much harder to live out.
As the season begins to change for me, I have become much more reluctant to lead.
It’s not that I’m afraid of man because that part of me has been crucified. Now I struggle with the fear of the Lord. I am so weary of not being in complete union with Him. I want to be led only by the Holy Spirit and never by the flesh. I so connect with Gideon in the wine press, hiding, unsure, not fully realizing who he was or what he was called to do. Still the word of the Lord rings true…”My grace is sufficient. My power is made perfect in weakness.”
In weakness some leaders are reluctant to lead. That seems to be the category I fit into these days. It’s like blind faith fueled by the whisper of His voice that is keeping me going. Jeremiah reminds me daily that my Father’s plans for me are good…really good! In my reluctance, I look at the cross of the crucified Christ. I remember my friendship with Jesus and how kind He is and how He is my biggest cheerleader. His smile melts away all my fear. I tell myself, “Self it’s time you start believing what you preach, that we are created on purpose and with purpose!”
So when He whispers, Put up a tent in the field. I say, yes Sir.
He says, I want you to start meeting on Friday nights and share a meal together. My response is, yes Sir.
Julie and I don’t know what we are doing or where we are headed. What we do know is where Jesus leads, we will follow. Coincidently, I stumbled upon this quote this morning that really speaks to my heart.
It’s by General George S. Patton.
A man must know his destiny. If he does not recognize it, then he is lost. By this I mean, once, twice, or at the very most, three times, fate will reach out and tap a man on the shoulder. If he has the imagination, he will turn around and fate will point out to him what fork in the road he should take. If he has guts, he will take it!
May the Lord become your wildest dream!